{"id":858,"date":"2023-11-06T19:28:22","date_gmt":"2023-11-06T19:28:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/spayaesthetics.com\/?p=858"},"modified":"2023-11-06T19:32:36","modified_gmt":"2023-11-06T19:32:36","slug":"the-sound-i-make-when-i-walk","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/spayaesthetics.com\/index.php\/2023\/11\/06\/the-sound-i-make-when-i-walk\/","title":{"rendered":"THE SOUND I MAKE WHEN I WALK"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-post\" data-elementor-id=\"858\" class=\"elementor elementor-858\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-26dd85a elementor-section-height-min-height elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-items-middle\" data-id=\"26dd85a\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;slideshow&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_gallery&quot;:[{&quot;id&quot;:143,&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https:\\\/\\\/spayaesthetics.com\\\/wp-content\\\/uploads\\\/2023\\\/05\\\/banner-foto-website.png&quot;}],&quot;background_slideshow_loop&quot;:&quot;yes&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_slide_duration&quot;:5000,&quot;background_slideshow_slide_transition&quot;:&quot;fade&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_transition_duration&quot;:500}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-background-overlay\"><\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-7ffbe3d\" data-id=\"7ffbe3d\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-16e10d8 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"16e10d8\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! elementor - v3.13.3 - 28-05-2023 *\/\n.elementor-heading-title{padding:0;margin:0;line-height:1}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title[class*=elementor-size-]>a{color:inherit;font-size:inherit;line-height:inherit}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-small{font-size:15px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-medium{font-size:19px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-large{font-size:29px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xl{font-size:39px}.elementor-widget-heading .elementor-heading-title.elementor-size-xxl{font-size:59px}<\/style><h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">THE SOUND I MAKE WHEN I WALK<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-f53e3c1 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"f53e3c1\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">BY NOAH SPEE<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-0342103\" data-id=\"0342103\" data-element_type=\"column\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;slideshow&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_gallery&quot;:[{&quot;id&quot;:862,&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https:\\\/\\\/spayaesthetics.com\\\/wp-content\\\/uploads\\\/2023\\\/07\\\/IMG_6F9898DEBB11-1-3.jpeg&quot;}],&quot;background_slideshow_loop&quot;:&quot;yes&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_slide_duration&quot;:5000,&quot;background_slideshow_slide_transition&quot;:&quot;fade&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_transition_duration&quot;:500}\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-ee57e29 elementor-widget elementor-widget-spacer\" data-id=\"ee57e29\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"spacer.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<style>\/*! elementor - v3.13.3 - 28-05-2023 *\/\n.elementor-column .elementor-spacer-inner{height:var(--spacer-size)}.e-con{--container-widget-width:100%}.e-con-inner>.elementor-widget-spacer,.e-con>.elementor-widget-spacer{width:var(--container-widget-width,var(--spacer-size));--align-self:var(--container-widget-align-self,initial);--flex-shrink:0}.e-con-inner>.elementor-widget-spacer>.elementor-widget-container,.e-con-inner>.elementor-widget-spacer>.elementor-widget-container>.elementor-spacer,.e-con>.elementor-widget-spacer>.elementor-widget-container,.e-con>.elementor-widget-spacer>.elementor-widget-container>.elementor-spacer{height:100%}.e-con-inner>.elementor-widget-spacer>.elementor-widget-container>.elementor-spacer>.elementor-spacer-inner,.e-con>.elementor-widget-spacer>.elementor-widget-container>.elementor-spacer>.elementor-spacer-inner{height:var(--container-widget-height,var(--spacer-size))}<\/style>\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer-inner\"><\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-0a7176e elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"0a7176e\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-6bfb5b4\" data-id=\"6bfb5b4\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-9fcd1f6 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"9fcd1f6\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Date of publishing: 06\/11\/2023<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-ade4e21 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"ade4e21\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-66f596c\" data-id=\"66f596c\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-a4928d4 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"a4928d4\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Does anyone remember putting on their first pair of heeled shoes? I do, and I was scared shitless. But I need to start at the beginning. The first time I saw men wearing heels was on Pinterest I think. I was looking up outfit ideas and suddenly saw this man wearing an all-leather suit and leather boots to finish it off. But these weren\u2019t your regular old Chelsea boots, no, these were boots with at least a 7-centimeter heel! I was feeling so many things at once, amazement, confusion and even a little bit of jealousy. But why was I feeling jealous?<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-08d92d2 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"08d92d2\" data-element_type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-86b8e75\" data-id=\"86b8e75\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-b4b66ac elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"b4b66ac\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">I think it started with the fact that I thought that I couldn\u2019t wear them. First of all, where could I even find these types of boots? Let alone find shoes like these within my budget at the time. I think it was also, partially, some insecurity. \u201cWhy don\u2019t I have the confidence?!\u201d I asked myself. You know the feeling right? But it was mostly because I was scared of other people\u2019s opinions. I used to be such a scared boy. Afraid to be myself, afraid to try new things I was even afraid that I would get beaten up every now and then. And this was even before I bought the boots. <\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-6fa1b3a elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"6fa1b3a\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-f002c4e\" data-id=\"f002c4e\" data-element_type=\"column\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;slideshow&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_gallery&quot;:[{&quot;id&quot;:896,&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https:\\\/\\\/spayaesthetics.com\\\/wp-content\\\/uploads\\\/2023\\\/11\\\/IMG_7418-1.png&quot;}],&quot;background_slideshow_loop&quot;:&quot;yes&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_slide_duration&quot;:5000,&quot;background_slideshow_slide_transition&quot;:&quot;fade&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_transition_duration&quot;:500}\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-0988611\" data-id=\"0988611\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-fbb7391 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"fbb7391\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Fast forward a few months. I was scrolling on on my phone like I often do. Looking through different clothing web shops because I was needing some outfit inspiration. All of the sudden they showed up on ASOS.  Or well, sort of. The boots did show up, but because of my insecurities at the time I was too afraid to order them. Saving them to my list, I kept scrolling through the recommendations they offered. And there they were, my starter, Cuban heeled, leather boots. Without hesitation they were forwarded to my shopping cart and ordered within no-time. The day they arrived I was as thrilled as a child on Christmas morning. I completely shredded the bag that the box was in and the moment I saw them I was in complete awe. The shiny matte finish and the chunky heel were better than I thought they\u2019d be.<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-1e38328 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"1e38328\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-143958f\" data-id=\"143958f\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-41f324f elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"41f324f\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">You can imagine that me, as a 16-year-old boy was terrified to wear them to school. The first day I put them on I was so scared about what people might think, I almost didn\u2019t wear them. I decided to \u201cman\u201d up and walk to the bus to be on my way to school. The moment I heard them tap on the sidewalk I knew I made the right choice. It just gave me a certain boost of determination to keep walking forward and not run back home to put on my sneakers.<br><br>\n\nI remember receiving so many compliments about my confidence and appearance that I had a \u201cpretty good day\u201d to put it lightly. But all jokes aside, it wasn\u2019t all joy and happiness. The looks, name calling and negative energy struck me like lightning. It was a mixture of feeling acceptance and unacceptance. As a teen you can imagine what those feelings do to you. They scare you, make you feel like you\u2019re not good enough or even that you\u2019re not \u201cnormal\u201d. But what exactly is normal? Walking around in a graphic t-shirt and jeans with holes in them? And believe me when I say there is absolutely nothing wrong with that! But it\u2019s not me. I\u2019d rather be looked at and shock people for being myself, then adjusting my personality to try and fit in the societal mold. <\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-9f7002c elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"9f7002c\" data-element_type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-75e6aeb\" data-id=\"75e6aeb\" data-element_type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-e29a797 elementor-widget elementor-widget-spacer\" data-id=\"e29a797\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"spacer.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer-inner\"><\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-a4d0f97 elementor-widget elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"a4d0f97\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"heading.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Fast forward a couple years forward. I\u2019m now in my early twenties and I\u2019m still living my life according to my own terms. Sometimes I think about what life would look like if I did listen to what other people had to say. Would I walk around like every other person? Or would I still have had the fear of judgement I had before? Thinking about these things give me a feeling of independence and make me believe that I AM a strong person, exactly for being who I am on the inside. I\u2019m so glad that I\u2019ve decided to believe in myself and trust my heart, because I think I otherwise would\u2019ve lived a very sad and empty life. I\u2019m now surrounded by people that love me for me. I walk around in even higher heeled boots, from vinyl to leather and completely developed my own style. Every day that I celebrate being myself I believe that I get one step closer to reaching my goal. Making every \u201cabnormal\u201d person celebrate themselves. If all those years ago I would\u2019ve decided to run back home and put on my sneakers, I would not have made the sound when I walk that I do now.<\/h2>\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-50 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-3157227\" data-id=\"3157227\" data-element_type=\"column\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;slideshow&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_gallery&quot;:[{&quot;id&quot;:910,&quot;url&quot;:&quot;https:\\\/\\\/spayaesthetics.com\\\/wp-content\\\/uploads\\\/2023\\\/11\\\/IMG_3012.png&quot;}],&quot;background_slideshow_loop&quot;:&quot;yes&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_slide_duration&quot;:5000,&quot;background_slideshow_slide_transition&quot;:&quot;fade&quot;,&quot;background_slideshow_transition_duration&quot;:500}\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-6a21575 elementor-widget elementor-widget-spacer\" data-id=\"6a21575\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"spacer.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer-inner\"><\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Does anyone remember putting on their first pair of heeled shoes? 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